Yesterday I had an interesting experience I wanted to share. I had a Dr. appointment near a local Old Navy and I thought I would go in really quick to grab some jeans for my kids. While there I thought I would try on some jeans myself. I have always had a hard time finding jeans. My body is just uniquely shaped and it's impossible to find jeans that fit perfectly. To fit my hips, there is always way too much room in the waist. To fit my waist, well, I can't clear my bum to get the jeans to my waist.
As I walked to the dressing rooms, the anxiety I felt was strong. Flashbacks from the days that I would go to Target and not be able to find anything that I liked that would fit. The horrible feelings I used to have of my body because I needed clothes and couldn't find anything at the local Target. It was always such a dilemma because I never had the time to go anywhere that had a Lane Bryant or department store that had bigger sizes. Those days I would just go home and fill myself. Yes, it was a catch 22 and a downward spiral for me.
So I am in the Old Navy dressing room and the thought occurred to me that I have never been able to fit into Old Navy jeans. Either they were so big in the waist you could see my bum when I bent over or so snug that I couldn't get them on. I was hoping that this time would be different. To my surprise, they fit and they were comfortable. Now, the whole disproportion issue is still in play, they were roomy in my waist, but manageable with a longer shirt. I have faith that the next 10 pounds will fix that right up. I am just excited to have a pair of jeans from Old Navy that fit and are comfortable. I am super thrilled that I can now do some online shopping for myself! I couldn't before because my size would range so largely that it was exhausting to try to hit the right size. Right now I am between a 10-12. I am happy with that. Of course I would love to be an 8, but I am not going to be picky.
Trying to get the last 10 has been hard. The weather has changed and I just love to cook and bake. Allrecipes has such great things to bake. I am excited though, because without any effort, I have been able to eat what I like and be able to maintain!! This is huge! I will need to bump up the efforts to get a little lower, but it's such a relief to know that I have found an eating and exercise regimen that is flexible and effective.