Seriously, why are our brains constantly messing with us? Why do our eyes fail us? This week I have been feeling a little like I used to. I swear I feel like I have gained a few pounds. I look in the mirror, the reflection is the same. I hop on the scale, it also hasn't changed. I put on my clothes, nothing new. So what is the deal??
When I used to feel like this I would just eat whatever I felt like, in large quantities. It was almost like I was punishing myself for being overweight. The thought was, "Well, I'm overweight, I feel like poo, may as eat things that taste divine. I would ignore my better judgement and just eat. Sometimes I would crave and unless I ate what I was craving, I would just keep eating. I remember eating salty popcorn and then crave something sweet, brownies. Then after that, I would want something salty, chips. Then later, ice cream... It was sad and I never did that when anyone was around because I would have been incredibly embarrassed.
When I did Weight Watchers a few years ago, I was successful in loosing weight there, but I always felt on the edge. Like at any time I could slip and just go overboard. (Which I did after having my 3rd baby) Looking back and thinking about my WW experience, I was loosing weight, but I didn't change the habits. There were nights where I would start with salty popcorn in a measured amount, then I would move onto a serving of fat free brownie cookies, then I would go back to the popcorn (let's face it, low fat chips taste like paper) and then I would move on to "Skinny Cow" ice creams." On a rough day I would save a lot of my points just so I could gorge at night on junk. I stayed within my point range, I lost weight, but I did it by beating the system. But did I? When you try to beat the weight loss journey, it always comes back to bite you in the bum. In my case, by adding everything I ate to my bum! :o)
So I am learning that there are times are brain just freaks out for no reason! We just feel heavy. We are females, with cycles and as soon as you accept that our bodies are not our own, the battle is easier because you stop fighting it and start to learn to listen to it. By listening to our bodies, we can begin to work with it. What I am hearing is that I need to refocus on what I am eating and to start thinking about my portions. This is the time of year where there are lots of wonderful foods, warm foods, gooey foods. I am a picker, and if I am not careful I could pick myself into a few extra pounds. My game plan? Don't take my eating for granted. I need to focus and think before I eat. Make my plate and don't go back for seconds. If I am snacky, find something healthy that will curb the appetite. DRINK MY WATER!!!
SIDE NOTE: A new snack that I am loving! You can't eat a ton, and if you eat more than you would like, not a biggie, because it's a tomato after all. Dehydrated tomatoes from my garden nearly taste like candy. They have a strong, sweet, savory flavor so after a few you are done with snacking. Such an unexpected delight!